Today started out a little rocky, but is turning out to be one of the better days I’ve had in a while. I’m still awaiting the surgery that I wrote about in my last post, so as with every day for the longest time I woke up exhausted, sick, and in pain. The last three nights have been atrocious for sleep too, which hasn’t been helping. This afternoon rolled around though, and I sat down to do my daily card reading which I resumed a few weeks ago. It has felt great to get back into that routine, and as time goes by it is becoming more natural. I’m tickled!
I went a little deeper with my reading today, and when I finished I was inspired to do something I haven’t done in a few years. After grabbing a few crystals which called to me, a favorite oil, and a sprig of rosemary, I went into a room where I can close the door, and put on some headphones. Then I created sacred space by cleansing, then lighting a candle, I got comfy with the crystals and went into a deep meditation. During this time, I did some work on my chakras and energy. When I was done, I ended up feeling better than I have in a long time!
This is something I’ve been longing to do for a long time, but just couldn’t break the blockages I’ve been experiencing. When it comes to doing the things that not only make my life better, they are a big part of what makes me, me this is a big deal. I’m also feeling the itch to start creating art and other things, but I’m not quite there yet. Today though felt like such a breakthrough, and now that I’ve started one of my most helpful routines, I am going to be doing it each and every day. While it will take a little while until it becomes second nature again (as with the cards), the feeling that I have after this afternoon’s session is more than enough to keep it up.
Little by little, I feel myself coming back to the person I have always been at my core. It’s exciting to me to think about this new version of myself, because while the deepest levels are the same, there can only be new and better things which will emerge after so much shadow work. Even though it has been an incredibly difficult handful of years, I have learned what feels like a lifetime’s worth of lessons, and I’m grateful for that. Finally getting this glimmer of myself today is something I felt I had to share. There’s still a lot of work to do, but now that I have experienced this feeling of being grounded and clear, I am seeing that ray of hope that everything is going to be okay.
For right now, continuing the work on myself is the top priority, because without that this space cannot be what it needs to be. While I continue with my progress, I’ll keep coming here to share things. One thing which has always been the case here is that what I share is not only for myself. There is the hope that whatever I post here may help to ignite something for someone else. This particular post is one of hope. If you’re out there going through a dark period, keep holding on. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like the light will ever return, but then it does, and it’s beautiful. I came very close to just giving up, more than once, because the onslaught of hardships was relentless and prolonged. Now that I’m coming out the other side though, I’m so glad that I didn’t surrender.
Wishing you peace, happiness, and hope. Until next time ❤