Cost Of Progress

To find the answer, look between the black and the white

For the solution rarely lies in one or the other

Sacrifices are rife, and the path to a goal often takes the form of a means to an end

At least that’s the way that it feels sometimes

There’s little comfort in looking backward when trying to find the way ahead

Is acceptance of that which once felt unacceptable ever the solution?

 

 

Three A.M.

Tossing and turning, mind spinning and swirling, for hours on end

Finally at three a.m. the warmth of the bed feels more like a prison than a comfort

So, to the work table I go trying to find the mental acuity to start a project

Drawing frustrating blanks thanks to sleep deprivation and thoughts which won’t stop

Thinking of the day ahead, trying not to see it as yet more blank pages ahead

Mocking me with the stark whiteness and blinking cursors of the days before

Looking at the tools and tubes stacked nearby I sigh, for there are a lot of ideas

Yet little in the way of a driving force pushing me to create

Brain is like a quagmire, the uncertainty feeling as though it is dragging me under

Looking for the it thing, the passion, the shining beacon to lead my feet down the path

Perhaps if I simply begin putting one foot in front of the other the light will turn on

And the time stretching in front of me will be filled with promise again

Hoping beyond hope that one day, new beginnings will not be the same

As starting over from scratch again, redefining every fucking thing once more

Where do I start this time? The answer is in here somewhere, waiting for discovery

Waiting for it to be time to start in earnest, for there to be less stops and more starts

Three a.m. can be a mind bending riddle filled with what ifs and whens

Okay bootstraps, reveal yourselves so that I can begin to pull myself up again.

Insides

Poetry collection by a cancer survivor. Powerful stuff!

Dragonscale Clippings

Today is a very emotional day for me…
Today I am launching my first poetry collection!
Insides is my journey through cancer, surgery and chemotherapy.
The process of writing it was initially a therapy for myself but I also wanted to comfort other cancer sufferers as well as trying to convey to those who have no experience of the disease, what it means to have cancer.
From darkness into light, from the depths of exhaustion through a slow rise to recovery; this is a very personal journey.
Will you join me?
In this collection I’m not hiding behind any of my fictional characters such as Dracomagan or Parsley. This is me on a journey I will never, ever forget.
It is available at Amazon UK and Amazon US.
At the moment, it’s only available as an e-book – the paperback will be released in 2017.
And I’ve also produced…

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