The Page Is Where A Poet…

Hello everyone,

Over the past several days, I’ve been posting some very emotional poetry. Even though I do not feel that it is necessary to come here and explain a few things, I will…just because…just to make things clear.

Poets not only smile, dance, and explore the world on the page. We also cry, bleed, heal, and process on the page. So, when you see poetry of the nature I’ve been posting lately it isn’t that I am looking for pity, or feeling like the world has ended. It simply means that I am hurting, and that poetry is a good way for me to allow the pain to wash through me.  Notice that I am only speaking for myself here. There may be others who use poems like these to try to garner attention or as cries for help. Mine are simply me, expressing what is in my heart and sharing all of that with whoever may read it, for a few reasons.

First and foremost…umm…I’m a poet and I love to write and read all sorts of poetry. Secondly, I’ve always believed that words are powerful tools for healing and understanding. Not to mention that painting pictures with words is a fantastic alternative way to share our vision of the world and ourselves.

I truly appreciate and welcome all of the support which I’ve received from those of you who have reached out. Please do not take this post as me asking any of you to back off or leave me alone. I just want anyone who may be wondering to know that I am way more resilient than to allow a broken heart to make me wave the white flag on life.  I will get through this, and I want to thank the dear people who have been so lovely and supportive. It just takes time. While I cannot promise that there won’t be any more of this heart wrenching material appearing here in the coming days or weeks, just know that I will be fine, and if I’m not…those of you who love and care about me will be the first to know.

I’ve enjoyed sharing a little bit more about what beats in the heart of this poet. Hope that for those of you who do not wax poetic yourselves, that this post has given you some insight as to how deeply poetry pervades the lives of those of us who imbibe.

Lots of love,

Tracy

Love Letter ~ Take The Leap

Dear beautiful souls,

I wanted to come here today and wish all of you a very happy holiday season. This will be my final post on Pull Up A Toadstool. On January 1st, 2017, I’ll be making the permanent move to my new site thepixiebaby.com.So, It seemed the perfect time to talk about the prevailing energy of the moment.

It is a time for new beginnings and to build on our foundations. I have talked to so many people in the past few weeks who are finding themselves experiencing tremendous growth and a readiness to take a bold leap into the life they’ve dreamed of. For many of us, the biggest hurdles we’ve had to leap are the limitations in our own mind. The messages of not being good enough, the fear of failure, the fear of success, old programming…and on it goes.

There is a definite change in the air for many right now. While the touch of fear still lingers, the desire for change and growth seems to be prevailing for many of us. We have this life to live and for many, our fears have kept us from living it. My final message to you from Pull Up A Toadstool is one of encouragement. The time is ripe to move ahead with our dreams and the plans of the last several years.

We are at the tail end of a 9 year cycle, which means that we are at a time of completion and setting our foundation for the next  9 year cycle. We have but a short time to set our firm intentions to begin reaping the benefits of releasing what no longer works and taking action in moving toward what makes our hearts beat with excitement. This isn’t to say that we have to have it “all together” by January 1st. Just that now is the time to get the energy firmly flowing in that direction.

The time that we are living in is tumultuous and exciting at the same time. There’s a lot to take in right now. Please remember to take care of yourselves in the midst of all of the hoopla. Allow time to just be, just breathe, and for a nice dose of joy and laughter. Taking care of all aspects of self is key right now. The era of wearing neglect of any sort as a badge of honor is over. Martyrdom is neither necessary or the goal, despite what you may have been taught. Self care is step number one in any endeavor.

In closing, I want to thank you for all of the years you’ve been with me here. I look forward to continuing our journey on the new site after the new year. Please be kind to yourselves and one another. Just remember that kindness is not the same as being a doormat. Balance in all things. Don’t be afraid to say no, don’t be afraid to say yes…it’s time to be your true self and build the life that reflects what you wish to see when you peer into the looking glass.

See you January 1st!

Much love,

Tracy

 

Thank You

Yesterday wrapped up my 60 Days Of Haiku project. I want to thank all of you who have been following along, and hope that you have enjoyed it as much as I have. Over the course of these past few months, I have developed an even deeper fondness for Haiku poetry, and just know that I’ll be doing more.

Things have been incredibly busy in my life lately, so bear with me if posts are a little sporadic for just a while. I will be here at least a few days a week and hope to be getting back into some artwork in the near future. Realistically, the art probably will not happen until after the holiday season wraps up, but hey…you never know.

As I settle into my new routines, I am finding that my biggest task at hand is finding a balance between work and personal life. This however, is a challenge that I am happy to have at the moment. I am very fortunate to have the wonderful friends and family that I have. The presence of such a lovely support team means a lot.

I’m hoping to sit down over the weekend and put together a thing or two for next week. Admittedly, I have no idea what that might be, so it looks like the muse is going to be leading the way.

Sending you much gratitude and wishing you a lovely weekend!

Much love,

Tracy

 

Love Letter ~ Do Unto Yourself As You Would Do Unto Others

Dear beautiful souls,

How many times have you heard the old adage to do unto others as you would have them do unto you? Probably more than you can shake a stick at, just as I have. I’ve come to realize that something important has been left out when it comes to this notion, which is the title of this post.

Have you ever thought about how much easier it would be to treat others kindly, if we were to begin with being kind to ourselves? Many of us are much more harsh with ourselves than we would ever dream of being with someone else. Now, before you go pointing the finger of blame at yourself for being guilty of that…stop. That’s what this post is all about.

The way that we think about and treat ourselves directly impacts how we treat and react to others. This is beside the point though, because this post is about us personally. Many of us were taught that it is selfish to think of ourselves and/or to live our lives through a lens of how our words and actions make other people feel. While it is important that we not go around with no regard to others at all, to imply that we are way less important than others is a recipe for a lot of heartache.

If only for a few weeks, please try something for me. Next time you find yourself downgrading yourself, reframe it somehow. If there’s something that you’re less than pleased with, instead of beating yourself up about it, ask how you can proactively begin changing it. Next time you judge yourself harshly for something that you have or haven’t said or done, instead of allowing those thoughts to snowball into excessive guilt and negativity, love yourself…imperfections and all…with an awareness of how it is that you can conduct yourself to maximize your happiness and satisfaction.

When we learn how to treat ourselves, so many other pieces of the puzzle automatically click into place. Remember to take things easy. It isn’t like any of us got the way that we are overnight. As time goes by, you may even realize that some of the things which you were taught were negatives about yourselves are anything but. Step by step, with patience and gentleness, you can find a balance in kindness which is for your highest good.

I’d love to hear a little about your own journeys on the road to treating yourselves with the same dignity and respect as you afford others.

Much love,

Tracy

Love Letter ~ Right Where You Are

Dear beautiful souls,

In this fast-paced world that we live in, many of us have gotten so accustomed to looking at life through the lens of time, instead of in the moment. From a young age we are taught to prepare for “someday”, “the future”, and to “look back at our mistakes”. While a little bit of planning and reflection are not bad things, always living or looking to the past and future make self acceptance and overall success and satisfaction difficult.

After all, if we are constantly looking at our perhaps less than ideal current conditions, blaming ourselves due to the past, it truly isn’t productive. At the same time, if we are always looking to the future for ways to improve our lives or our selves, that isn’t productive either.

There’s a lot to be said for this very moment, right here, right now. When we retrain ourselves or deepen our awareness and appreciation for what is in front of us at any given moment, a brilliant thing happens. All of that stress we’ve been carrying around like a monkey on our back because we’ve been looking back at all of our mistakes? Gone. The anxiety we feel about not only how we’re going to get from point a to point b, but if we’re even capable of achieving it? Gone.

Being present in the now is one of the biggest gifts which we can give to ourselves. You see, when you take away the shame and blame of the past and the fear about the future, what you’re left with is an increased appreciation for yourself, your life, and what is around you. It opens the doors to ever increasing self love, clarity, and relaxation. It’s so much easier to find solutions to things when we are focused on the present moment, as opposed to trying to figure out every possible outcome or fork in the road or comparing to the past.

Please, give yourself permission to release yourself from the chains of time. Be here, now. Taking off the filters of someday and yesterday is like turning on the windshield wipers when it’s pouring rain…everything clears right up. What we did or didn’t do in the past is just that…past. What might happen next year if x,y, or z does or doesn’t happen is just a maybe.

The one piece in time which we always have some control over is now. Learning to live in the now takes practice, just like any new skill. No matter what your path in life, there’s a lot to be learned about being in the now from Zen Buddhism. So, if you find yourself looking for tips and advice on living in the moment try looking at a few Zen websites or checking out a book or two (just so you know, I’m not a Buddhist, I just have a deep appreciation for the philosophy). Making our way into the present is making our way to a beautiful, calmer, more joyful life, which is my wish for each and every one of us.

With love and wishes for ever growing peace and happiness,

Tracy ❤

 

 

Love Letter ~ Enjoy The Simple Things

Hello Lovelies,

Admittedly this is a pretty easy letter for me to write today. Where I live, the temperatures are in a very comfortable Autumn range, the sky is sunny, and the leaves are starting to show signs of changing color. Even when things aren’t quite as idyllic however, learning to or taking the time to enjoy the simple things in life is one of the most loving gifts that a person can give themselves. Best part is that these are the kinds of things that are either free or as close as you can get to it.

We’ve all been there…financial hardships, illnesses, job losses, general unrest in the world around us, arguments with loved ones, difficult co-workers, and countless other things which pop up in life can quickly take over and color our  entire world in shades of dissatisfaction. While it is easier said than done sometimes, turning to the simple things which give us pleasure can break the negative thought patterns we all find ourselves in from time to time.

As I wrote about last week, feeling your feelings is important and not a step to be ignored. It’s when we stay in those feelings and begin to allow cynicism or some similar mindset to dominate our lives that we need to drop everything, no matter how briefly and take a few moments to breathe. Look outside the nearest window and enjoy the life out there or better yet, take a ten minute break and go out whenever possible. Tune in to your favorite music, watch an episode of that guilty pleasure TV show you love, read for a while, pet your dog, pet your cat, call your best friend, make a cup of your favorite tea or coffee, or literally just pause to take several deep breaths.

These little things are what we can turn to anytime to break our thought patterns, or get a brief respite from whatever is going on to create stress. Even when things are going well, it’s important that we partake in the simple pleasures in order to embrace life…embrace our humanity…to remind us that there is more to life than our jobs, money, relationships, or whatever else we can think to insert here. Please dear reader, start today. Love yourself enough to stop and savor this moment of being alive. If for some reason some might be thinking that it would be selfish to do so, think of this…when we take the time for these little things, the experiences of anyone who comes into contact with us is much more pleasant. When we fall into a nose to the grindstone mentality, stress floods in and pours over into every aspect of our lives.

We all deserve to find little rays of happiness. So, go on…take a short break and do one of those little things you do that just feel good! Your heart will thank you for it.

Much love to all of you,

Tracy

 

Love Letter ~ Keep Holding On

Dear Beautiful People,

It has been a little while since I’ve sat down to write something from my heart to yours. Today feels like a good day to do that. We are living in interesting times, and sometimes it seems as though things are spinning out of control. Even though I rarely read news headlines, let alone watch any news, it is impossible not to notice the things that are going on around us. We are in a period of rapid changes, not only in my part of the world…but in all of it. Yes, sometimes it feels scary or as though there is little hope.

I’m here to ask all of you not to give in to the fear and darkness mentality which seems to be in charge right now. Now more than ever, we must remember that no one can control our mentality but ourselves. Of course we see the worst and most frightening things portrayed in the media. First of all, that’s what sells. Secondly, it has been true for a few thousand years on this Earth and perhaps longer, that those in power, or wishing to be in power often create and maintain those positions by scaring the pants off of the rest of us. Don’t buy into it.

While it is true that we live in tumultuous times, it is also true that old systems and ways of being or thinking have to go through upheaval before things get better. Those who have read some of my older work know that I am not going to try to tell you that you need to smile your way through this. Now is the time to look at the dark and the light in both the world and in ourselves so that we can understand that duality is a part of the very nature of things.

When we learn to look at and accept our duality and all of our feelings as part of ourselves, that’s when the magic of real self love can begin. There’s a difference between acceptance and allowing something to take over. It’s a matter of being able to look at and see the un-shiny parts of ourselves with a spirit of kindness and understanding. When we repress those parts of ourselves with a fake smile plastered on our faces, we aren’t fully loving ourselves and therefore nothing can change.The pattern keeps repeating. How do I know this?  Because that was me, for a very long time.

Many of us are taught by our families, our religions, our teachers, etc. that expressing or even acknowledging feelings like fear, anger, or disappointment is akin to dimming the light which shines in all of us. The opposite is true. When we feel ourselves sliding into fear or anger, the best thing that we can do is to basically look at it and say, “I see you. I feel you”…acknowledge that it is part of our nature to feel those things and accept that just because we feel certain feelings we are not “bad” people.

As for what is going on in the world around us, the same can be said. We can see it, we can acknowledge that it is happening, and then we can understand deep in our very core that those things do not define us. Now more than ever, we have the opportunity to see how much power we have when it comes to creating our own realities. Sometimes, all we can do is stop…and simply be…riding the waves to the best of our abilities until the tide changes.

There is only so much digging and self excavation that we can do. While I highly encourage self examination, I believe that there is a fine line between examination and perpetuating a sense that there is something wrong with us. If something doesn’t feel right, instead of pointing a finger at yourself or someone else in blame…look for what you can do to either release it or change it. When thinking about the duality of our world and ourselves I always think of the parable of the two wolves. In case you haven’t heard of it, you can go here for a snippet.

So, all of you lovelies…be kind to yourselves. Love yourselves. Love each other. Love the beautiful world that we live on. Remember this~ Love is the fuel of great change.

Thank you for being here!

Much love to all of you,

Tracy