Back in October, I chose my word for the year. This year, my word is listen. Since then, I’ve been very open, making a point each day to ask for guidance and direction. As the end of this calendar year comes to a close, it has become clear to me that there are several things which are important for me to do at this time.
*The time has come for me to get serious about doing more to lead a healthier life. Over the past year, between stress, losses, the resulting depression, and the lack of taking good care of myself, I have found myself knowing that I simply have to do better by myself. I am in way too much pain, way too tired, and way too deconditioned to continue to ignore the needs of my body. I’ve already begun this by becoming more active and by getting my eating habits back in line with what makes my body feel better.
*My spiritual practice has been deepening exponentially over the past few years, and more rapidly and profoundly than ever in the last six months or so. The amount of time that I find myself feeling inclined to spend in both study and actual practice has increased a great deal. This includes time spent in silent contemplation of the things which I am learning and working on.
*Things have really been taking off creatively too. My writing practice has been thriving for months now and I am happy to say that it shows no sign of slowing down. Between a novel which is almost ready to head into the editing process, a metaphysical book which I began in November, articles for online magazines, and posts for this blog there’s a lot of work to be done…and I’m loving every moment of it. Not only has the writing been fruitful, but my art practice is coming back to life too which thrills me.
What this all means is that I am in need of paring down several things in order to focus fully on the tasks at hand. My energy levels have been at an all time low for the past several months and while I have taken steps and am beginning to feel myself coming back to life again, I have found myself asking what I can do to foster my healing process as I grow my practices. The answer is to give myself time and space. My body and spirit are craving full immersion in this work…in this space. After much soul seeking, I have come to understand the one thing which will give me the most of what I need right now.
Before I fill you in on my plan, I need to say something. This is nothing personal…it isn’t aimed at anyone. It isn’t about anyone other than me. It is a matter of me doing what needs to be done to bring myself into a state in which I will be the best that I can be for myself…let alone anyone else. More than anything, living a life of service to others is of utmost importance to me and I’ve come to realize…most painfully…that unless I take time and space to heal, that I cannot serve anyone well. My stores have been thoroughly depleted, and the time has come to rebuild to the best of my ability. There can be no more skipping certain steps. Okay…so what’s the plan?
To put it plainly and simply…for the most part (I am not going to lock myself away, so I’m sure there’ll be exchanges with people when I head out to run errands etc.)…other than key family members, doctors, and clients…communications will be electronic only until further notice. I will still be present here posting the cards and other things, I’ll still be present regularly on Facebook, and will reply to messages and comments both here and on social media. I’m not sure how often I’ll be interacting on social media as this is something new to me and I am playing it all by ear.
I want to thank all of you for being here and staying with me on this part of my journey. Not only that, but I’d like to encourage you to think about what your mind, body, and spirit are asking you for. Those are the most important requests to be open to hearing. Trust me…I have learned this lesson the hard way. Even though I’m diving deeper into my own journey at this time, I’m still here to encourage you with your own journeys, just a little differently than in the past.
I’ll be back here posting the daily cards starting on January 1st. Until then, thank you again for being here. I’m wishing each and every one of you a very Happy New Year…one in which you move closer to a life which reflects what’s in your heart and that your dreams move from your mind into reality. Here’s to a healthy, happy, prosperous, and love filled 2016!
Sending much love to all of you,