Love Letter ~ Keep Holding On

Dear Beautiful People,

It has been a little while since I’ve sat down to write something from my heart to yours. Today feels like a good day to do that. We are living in interesting times, and sometimes it seems as though things are spinning out of control. Even though I rarely read news headlines, let alone watch any news, it is impossible not to notice the things that are going on around us. We are in a period of rapid changes, not only in my part of the world…but in all of it. Yes, sometimes it feels scary or as though there is little hope.

I’m here to ask all of you not to give in to the fear and darkness mentality which seems to be in charge right now. Now more than ever, we must remember that no one can control our mentality but ourselves. Of course we see the worst and most frightening things portrayed in the media. First of all, that’s what sells. Secondly, it has been true for a few thousand years on this Earth and perhaps longer, that those in power, or wishing to be in power often create and maintain those positions by scaring the pants off of the rest of us. Don’t buy into it.

While it is true that we live in tumultuous times, it is also true that old systems and ways of being or thinking have to go through upheaval before things get better. Those who have read some of my older work know that I am not going to try to tell you that you need to smile your way through this. Now is the time to look at the dark and the light in both the world and in ourselves so that we can understand that duality is a part of the very nature of things.

When we learn to look at and accept our duality and all of our feelings as part of ourselves, that’s when the magic of real self love can begin. There’s a difference between acceptance and allowing something to take over. It’s a matter of being able to look at and see the un-shiny parts of ourselves with a spirit of kindness and understanding. When we repress those parts of ourselves with a fake smile plastered on our faces, we aren’t fully loving ourselves and therefore nothing can change.The pattern keeps repeating. How do I know this?  Because that was me, for a very long time.

Many of us are taught by our families, our religions, our teachers, etc. that expressing or even acknowledging feelings like fear, anger, or disappointment is akin to dimming the light which shines in all of us. The opposite is true. When we feel ourselves sliding into fear or anger, the best thing that we can do is to basically look at it and say, “I see you. I feel you”…acknowledge that it is part of our nature to feel those things and accept that just because we feel certain feelings we are not “bad” people.

As for what is going on in the world around us, the same can be said. We can see it, we can acknowledge that it is happening, and then we can understand deep in our very core that those things do not define us. Now more than ever, we have the opportunity to see how much power we have when it comes to creating our own realities. Sometimes, all we can do is stop…and simply be…riding the waves to the best of our abilities until the tide changes.

There is only so much digging and self excavation that we can do. While I highly encourage self examination, I believe that there is a fine line between examination and perpetuating a sense that there is something wrong with us. If something doesn’t feel right, instead of pointing a finger at yourself or someone else in blame…look for what you can do to either release it or change it. When thinking about the duality of our world and ourselves I always think of the parable of the two wolves. In case you haven’t heard of it, you can go here for a snippet.

So, all of you lovelies…be kind to yourselves. Love yourselves. Love each other. Love the beautiful world that we live on. Remember this~ Love is the fuel of great change.

Thank you for being here!

Much love to all of you,

Tracy

 

 

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Bonus Post ~ Letter To My Younger Self

Yesterday, Miriam’s Well published a letter to my you younger self that I had sent in response to a call for submissions. Many of us have wished that our present day selves could go and have a chat with our younger selves about life. Sitting down to write this letter was a very healing experience. I highly recommend that some of you give it a try sometime.

To read the letter, please click here. Sure I could post it here, but I’d really like Miriam’s Well to get the traffic for being so kind as to publish my letter. Feel free to come back here to comment. ❤

Dignity

For the purposes of this post, I am only using a few of the possible meanings of the title word of this post. To see the entire definition of the word, please click below: Dictionary.com

noun, plural dignities.
1.

bearing, conduct, or speech indicative of self-respect or appreciation of the formality or gravity of an occasion or situation.
2.

nobility or elevation of character; worthiness:

dignity of sentiments.

Dignity is one of those things which many of use do not give a whole lot of thought to for at least part of our lives. Either we do not think about it, or we hadn’t been taught the value of it. The hope is that at some point that we figure out how valuable it is, and how to restore it. We’ve all done things in our lives which may not have been in line with a sense of dignity. However, all things have the potential to lead us there.

The reason for that last line is that it would be very easy to feel so ashamed of things in the past that it feels as though we are not worthy of self-respect or a sense of dignity. Trust me, I get that. I also know that it is never too late. When we start putting the pieces of ourselves back together, all things are possible.

Perhaps we were taught or told as children that we weren’t worth much and we went through our lives believing this to one extent or another. That one is a tough nut to crack, yet with time and repetition, we can turn the volume of those ancient voices down or even hit the mute button. Once we realize that those negative messages were less about us and more about the person who planted them, it becomes simpler to let it all fade into the background. While working through all of that, it is key that we do not allow that realization to turn into anger, because that is not productive. Not only that, but we can turn it around and use those experiences to learn how to do better by ourselves and perhaps help others to do the same.

 Please try to remember that a desire to help others does not make their actions, or acceptance of the advice or example your responsibility. A few days ago, I read something to the effect of ‘caring is not the same as carrying’. I’m sure that it wasn’t worded exactly like that, and I do not remember where I read it, but the sentiment is one which automatically stuck with me.

Often, we can trace many of the things we’ve done of which we aren’t proud back to negative programming or events in our earlier years. This doesn’t give us a pass, but it does help us to understand the origins of our feelings and do something to avoid taking similar actions in the future. We should also be a little gentler on ourselves, or less harsh in our self judgements. Why? Because deeply holding onto guilt or shame over past actions or words does not propel us forward into reclaiming our dignity.

So how to we get to that place? Through a process of realizing the untruth in the old beliefs and messages which led to the loss or dimming of our dignity, and making a conscious decision to uncover who we really are. There may be things we’ve done for which there will always be a sense of shame. This doesn’t mean that there is no redemption, or that we are not worthy of having a better life.  Even though we cannot undo or unsay things, we can absolutely give ourselves permission to rise above them from here on out.

So Much Goodness

For a long while, I had been posting Angel cards on Wednesdays. I’ve decided to change things up and just come here and pour out a little of my heart and soul instead. I’m not sure if I’ll be bringing the cards back, but I will say that at this point it isn’t my intention. I’ve missed showing up and just chatting about the things that matter. So, for the time being that’s what Wednesdays will be for. It’s hard to tell what will bubble to the surface, so I hope that you’ll stick around and join in.

Today just feels like a good day to think about the good things in life. In this time of shifting, social unrest, and what can only be described as upheaval, it can sometimes feel as though there is little hope and kindness in the world. There are times in which I briefly feel that way, and then something happens to remind me of how much love there is around me. My family isn’t a large one, but the few that I have make up for size with true love and acceptance. My friends may be few, but those that I have are not just acquaintances, they are part of my family.

In addition to the wonderful people in my life, there are a lot of good things happening on a personal level. Things which excite me. Things which bring me joy. My editor Melissa Scott and I have finally put my novel to bed. She was a joy to work with, and I couldn’t be happier with the end result. It feels so good to see this project completed. The next step is to put together a kick ass query package to send off to an agent this week. I have one who is interested in the concept, which is a great first step. The momentum is in high gear.

In addition to all of the above, I’ve recently taken huge measures to take control of my health and the inflammation in my body. I kept getting nudges to go vegan…at least for a while. I had been vegan for a few weeks last year before my father’s passing. It seemed to be agreeing with me, but honestly after the events of that time, I kinda just didn’t care for a while about much of anything. Anyway, fast forward to a little over a year later…the nudges kept getting stronger and stronger. There was even a dream in which a male voice said loud and clear, “If you want to heal and survive you will go vegan.”

Well, there was no more ignoring all of the nudges after that. So, as of today I’ve been vegan for almost 4 weeks. So far, it is agreeing with me. My levels of inflammation and overall pain are slowly decreasing, my skin has cleared up to the point that I no longer need to use my topical cream for rosacea, my mind feels clearer, and I’m losing some weight. It’s hard to tell how things will go in the long term with all of this, but as of this moment in time, I feel grateful that I am doing what I’m doing because it is making me feel better. This is not a moral or political statement. It is about me, taking measures to help my body to heal.

The whole point of this post is that even in the midst of chaos, there are good things and people to be found and remembered. These are the things which keep us going each day. In every life, there are regular occurrences of difficulty and stress to some extent. Impermanence is one of the things which I am in total agreement with Buddhism about. Here are two of my favorite quotes on the subject:

Life is fragile, like the dew hanging delicately on the grass, crystal drops that will be carried away on the first morning breeze. – Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche

Impermanence is a principle of harmony. When we don’t struggle against it, we are in harmony with reality. – Pema Chodron

While we walk the face of this earth, there will be challenges. In the midst of them however, there is still good. Remembering how transient the events in our lives are is so good for the heart and soul. It is in the certainty of the temporary nature of things that we can find so much comfort, especially in times of difficulty.

Momentum

Last week, I made mention of the importance of momentum this year. There are several factors, most important being numerological, which make keeping things rolling very important for the remainder of this year. In numerology time goes in nine year cycles, with a a 1 year being for new beginnings or fresh starts and a 9 year being for bringing things to completion or fruition. This year is a 9 year, and this is how:

2016= 2+0+1+6 which = 9

While we are more than half way through this year, it is not too late to kick things into gear if you haven’t already. Think back over the course of the past 9 years, and bring to mind the things which you have been thinking about wishing to accomplish the most or that you may have even taken some preliminary steps with. These are the things that you will wish to focus on for the remainder of this year.

Make decisions about whether you still wish to follow through with all of the things which have drifted into your awareness over the past 9 year cycle. If you have some things which no longer resonate with you (we all will, more than likely), this is the time to set them free and concentrate on what matters most to you. When we keep holding onto things which no longer ring true, it is so easy to allow ourselves to become stuck due to guilt over not accomplishing those things. So, right now the biggest favor that you can do for yourself is to honestly evaluate what you’d like to see get finished this year. Once you get it figured out, you can set yourself free and take action on the things that matter.

Since we are so far into the year, it’s key to not take too long with your evaluation process. Listen to your heart, as it already knows the answer anyway. Please allow hope and optimism to be your guides through the coming months. While there is some urgency about all of this, keep in mind that the time is right for manifesting wonderful things. Keep stress out of the equation as much as possible and give yourself permission to dream big. Now more than most times, positive visualization is your friend.

See yourself successful in what ever it is that you wish to achieve. Really see yourself as you wish to be and where you wish to be, feel the feelings of success, incorporate textures and scents etc. While it is important to follow your instincts with action, try not to get bogged down in the details. Listen to the whispers of your soul and your guides/angels/God/Goddess. The upcoming four months are not the time for the what if game. Believe in yourself and dream big. Know that I’ll be here wishing for your dreams to come true…and then some.

When Hearts And Minds Meet

Monday’s post was about coming together with people that we love and how wonderful that can be. I said that I would be back later this week to talk a little more about it, so here I am. My amazing cousin made the long drive to visit with my sister and myself for a long weekend and it was like a retreat for all of us. She stayed at my place, and my sister came to hang out for a few hours each day that she was here.

Of course we shared a lot of laughter and memories, which was healing in and of itself. As if just being together wasn’t gift enough, we experienced so many things which could only be described as magical that it would be difficult to list them all. There were readings, energy work, super healthy nutrition, teas, and late night chats about spiritual topics. It felt like I had a weekend retreat at my own house…yep, it was that good.

Though it wasn’t planned or even discussed before my cousin got here, the three of us spontaneously began work on a project which we first discussed around two years ago. It is still in such an early phase that I’m not ready to say anything more about it. What I do want to talk about is how amazing it is that we were able to take three people, bringing their individual perspectives and experiences together in such a smooth way that it is a joy. Collaborating like this has been a long held dream for me. This seems to be the year for long held wishes coming true around here.The way that things flowed so smoothly and the sheer amount of work that we got done felt so natural that all of us remarked that it was obviously meant to happen.

As we get further into the project I’ll give more details about what it is, because it’s definitely exciting. Right now though, my wish was to talk about the healing effects of spending time in communion with people with whom we can connect to on a heart, mind, and spiritual level. Experiencing a weekend like this has been so rejuvenating and life affirming that it is hard to describe adequately with words. How does a person fully describe how wonderful a full heart and renewed hope feel? It isn’t something which is easy to convey. One evening as we sat around the table, I had an emotional moment because what we were doing and how it felt was so deeply good that it fulfilled a long held vision of sitting around with a few people brainstorming, sharing, and enjoying.

Earlier this year, my aunt came for a visit and other than the collaboration on a project, the connections and overall sweetness of the visit was every bit as amazing. This year truly has been a gift in this respect, and it isn’t over yet. I have a few more people coming in later this year and I’m looking forward to those experiences as well. My heart is receiving so much healing and I’m full of gratitude. This is something which everyone needs sometimes. The experiences of deep connection and collaboration definitely have me ready for more.

I have a good bit of work to do, both on this new project, on my novel which is with my editor, and on a book of poetry that I’ve been putting together in spare moments. The beauty is that none of this seems like work. It feels good to have so many things flowing and coming together. My hope is that many of you are also seeing things coming together and are experiencing joy and following your hearts. Even though we’ve crossed over the halfway point of this year, this is definitely the year to get things rolling. I’ll talk more about the importance of momentum this year in a post next week.

 

Coming Together

There’s nothing in this world like coming together with loved ones- to share thoughts, ideas, laughter, and memories. Since Friday my daily life has been filled with long talks about spirituality, love, miracles, and mysteries. The walls have echoed with laughter. There have been grown-up tea parties during which we explored ideas about healing our bodies with nutrition and the help of our guides and the Angels.

This has been the kind of weekend that I’d like to have more often. Spent sharing everything from triumphs to tears with people who you know that you can trust and who are there for no reason other than that there is shared love. While the weekend is still going for me, I had to share a little about what’s going on here. Things will be winding down tomorrow, and I’ll share more about this magical time later this week.

My biggest hope is that I’ll remember all of the beautiful moments and the thoughts of late night brainstorming sessions. You can’t imagine how much ground we’ve covered in just a few days and how powerful this time has been. I find myself wishing that I’d been taking notes or something in order to get it all down. For now, I’m going to close and enjoy the rest of this experience.

Wishing you peace, love, and beautiful heart warming memories that you can store away to savor always.