Shaping Our World

This morning, I started out by writing an extremely rare rant post. When I got to the end of it, I realized that the point of the thing was not really to complain about the myriad of things that aren’t quite right with the world. What I had really been working up to in that rant was the importance of realizing that we have more ability to create our own world than we often realize.

It can be easy these days to get bogged down in feelings of despair and helplessness, as the times we’re living in are full of uncertainty and turmoil. I’ll admit that for a while, it seemed to me that the solution was of almost utter isolation. Thankfully that mindset has been replaced with a deeper and firmer connection with ideals I’ve believed to be true for a very long time, but had buried in my misplaced desire for acceptance in spaces which do not fit me (thank goddess).

While I certainly am not going to be out roaming the streets among the masses of unmasked people, I have decided to ramp up my community building skills. We really can, to a very large degree, create a world which does fit us. A place to find joy, happiness, peace, compassion, and very importantly, connection. Connection with the world around us, connection with that which is greater than ourselves, connection with other people. Even in the midst of difficulty, we do have the power to do all of this.

You may have noticed that I wrote of that with a lot of certainty, and it’s true, I did. This is because I know it to be true. In a time not too very long ago, I was (mostly) walking that path. There were some kinks to work out, both inner and outer, but it was more good than not. For a few years though, I had gotten sidetracked and lost my way. There were many lessons learned, slates were cleared. In those blank spaces, new things and people have been written and continue to be written all the time.

I’ve learned the huge value of my inherent ability to have, what they called, my head in the sand. Now more than ever I know that my head was not in the sand, it was in the clouds. I’m very grateful to say that it is now climbing back up there. It’s time to return to my ideals, along with some new ones I’ve adopted and get back to creating space and community which are uplifting, compassionate, creative, and loving. Time to wipe the tears, soothe the sorrow, and tame the frustration which comes with disconnecting from our sense of power, sense of belonging, and creative spirit. The direction has been reset, and I’ll be getting back to the work (which doesn’t feel at all like work) of creating an online space which reflects all of that.

Much love,

Tracy

Happy Samhain, My Witches!

Another Samhain is upon us. In Celtic pagan tradition, Samhain, known to many today as Halloween, marks the new year. When I discovered this many years ago, it made a lot of sense to me, because with many things in life, there is darkness before there is light again. It certainly stands true when it comes to the growing of crops, as harvested¬† seeds need time in darkness before they are ready to produce new life in the Spring. In ancient traditions, everyday life was very steeped in the turning of the natural wheel which I’ve always found to be beautiful in its simplicity.

This year, the concept of darkness before light is especially poignant for me. Much of the past twelve months have held a great deal of darkness, and I’ve even felt that it’s highly likely I’ve been going through what many would call a dark night of the soul. There have been huge changes in my health, relationships, and at times my convictions. There have been great losses, which have led to big gains when it comes to strength of both my character and in my abilities. This has been a major period of growth and transformation. There’s something about the absolute inertia which comes with autoimmune diseases which shook me to the core of my being. This, coupled with all of the other major changes had me wondering for a while if I had it in me to be able to bend enough so as not to break.

Here I am though, on this all hallows eve, finally seeing some light at the end of the tunnel. After being on a new medication for a little over a month, I was able to get out this past weekend and enjoy the company of a visiting family member. We hit several of the local watering holes, and even made our way up onto the Blue Ridge Parkway, where I not only made it up to the top of one of the mountains there, I even put my hiking boots on a trail and made it all the way to the end of it. Yes, I was hurting like hell and began to question my sanity for suggesting it about halfway through, but I pushed through and enjoyed every step of the way. I still have a long way to go, but to have hope again is a beautiful thing.

With all that has transpired this year, I am finding myself in a place of greater clarity about not only my direction, but my very identity. I’ve had a lot of down time to think about things, and come up with plans for new endeavors and twists in old ones. In the coming months, I’m going to be a lot more present online and there are exciting things in the works. While I’m not ready quite yet, as I’m still getting the medication into my system and working, I’m super excited to be rolling some things out in the not too distant future.

There is going to be a lot happening, and I’ll be bringing a lot of what I’ve learned over my years on my path to all of you. This time around, I’ll not only be writing about spirituality and witchy things, I’ll be putting together some products which will run the gamut from helpful and powerful, to just plain fun. Not to worry, I’ll be sharing a lot of knowledge which will be entirely free, and most of the items I’ll be offering will be very reasonable because I’ve always been of the belief that things of this nature should be easily accessible. There are other fun surprises in store, but I am going to keep them under wraps until I’m closer to rolling them out.

If any of you are struggling as I have been to get your feet back on your path, I’d like to suggest that you spend some time in stillness. Examine not only where you’d like to go, but where you’ve already been. Mercury went into retrograde today, where it will stay until November 20th, making this a good time to do a thorough review before proceeding. This particular retrograde is taking place in the sign of Scorpio which means that it will be important to carefully consider how to go forward. Even though it might be harsh at times, this planning process will be helped by the fact that this will be a time in which many truths will come to light. This will help all of us to have a clearer picture about ourselves, those around us, and what is behind the scenes in any endeavors we may be considering undertaking.

The retrograde period itself is a time to tie up any loose ends, read the fine print, expect some elements of the past to resurface, reminisce, think before speaking when it matters, fulfill current obligations, and wrap up unresolved issues. Once the retrograde ends, we will all be ready to move on to new things if that’s what we desire. At the very least, if we take all of the steps above, we will be ready to proceed on a smoother course with so many things clarified and cleared up. Last but not least, as with any mercury retrograde, be sure to keep electronic media backed up just in case.

For those of you who enjoy working with tarot or oracle cards, it’s always nice to take the time to do a reading for yourself for the upcoming year to help gain clarity and create a little road map for the months ahead. If you do not personally use cards or other forms of divination, it might be a good time to connect with a good practitioner to give you a reading and a bit of coaching.

It has been nice to come back to this space to write about spiritual matters, as it feels like it’s been forever. Be on the lookout for some shorter, more specific posts soon. If there’s anything spiritual or witchy you’d like me to write articles about, drop a comment and I’ll do my best. Wishing all of you the brightest of blessings!

Tracy

 

 

Thoughts On Being In The Moment

This morning, I came across a quote which resonated with me, and sparked some thoughts that I wish to share. The quote is below.

“There is only the moment. The now. Only what you are experiencing at this second is real.” ~ Leo Buscaglia

The seeming simplicity of this quote is deceptive. So often, I have had the tendency to take something which is happening in the present and allow my mind to let it take on epic proportions. We all do it, and typically it involves the things which are unpleasant or stressful. When something is going awry, do you find your thoughts diving into the past, or projecting the issue into the future, feeling like the situation is going to become a permanent fixture? I certainly have, and have been learning to work on it.

It’s definitely a process, and a very conscious choice. The actual practice of mindfulness is relatively new to me. I’ve often heard people talking about living in the moment, and just thought that it was one of those nice things to say, but hard or impossible to do. I’m finding that it isn’t all that difficult (most of the time, anyway). It takes a lot of inner reminders, but over time it is becomes easier.

For myself, as someone who has dealt with a great deal of trauma over the course of my life, remembering that what is happening right at this moment is what is real has been an amazing tool to help me keep things in balance. No matter whether a thing is positive or negative, reminding ourselves that in the next moment things shift is beyond helpful. Life is constant change, and while sometimes this is hard, the alternative is to live in a state of stagnation. I should say trying to live in a state of stagnation, because no matter how concentrated the effort may be, we cannot stem the tide of change.

The sentiment I’m writing about doesn’t mean that we squash our feelings. It’s just as unhealthy to try to pretend that it doesn’t exist as it is to let our thoughts project too far into the future. Building too many expectations for the future can be at the very least disappointing at times, and at the worst can color our thoughts so much that we lose opportunities for happiness because we’re convinced that things will stay the same. We can set goals for ourselves without becoming overly attached to the precise details. There are often many paths to a goal, and unexpected ways that our dreams manifest themselves.

By remembering that the present is all that is, it becomes so much easier to savor our moments of joy as they happen. Not only that, it becomes easier to acknowledge that we may be sad, angry, heartbroken, or any other emotion that pops up, and be able to let it just be without falling into the rabbit hole of remembering all of the “bad stuff” that happened in the past, or convincing ourselves that life is always going to follow the same patterns.

Trust me, I know that this is not the easiest practice to adopt. As a relative newbie to it myself, I have seen how ingrained it is to step out of what is happening in our present moments to dwell in the past and obsess over the future. This whole year for me is dedicated to a continuation of my mindfulness practice. So far, it has been the most helpful method inner work I’ve tried to date. If you find yourself in a place of reliving traumas or being caught up in the type of thought patterns which I wrote about above, I encourage you to look into all of this a bit, and if you feel you need help with it, please reach out and find it. I openly admit that I have.