Like The Tide

In the night, we left this place and drove to the sea

Arriving to a full moon floating over the gentle waves

Like something out of a dreamlike game sequence

So beautiful and ethereal, everything seemed almost unreal

The scene had us in an awestruck state of bliss

Oceanfront oasis with a wall of windows and giant fluffy bed

Facing the moonlit sea, loving one another to the rhythm of the surf

As the sky began to lighten, we moved to the wall of windows

Opening one to fill our already flooded senses with the sound and smell

Of the briny excitement of the purple sky and rushing water

Your arms around me as we stood by the window taking it in

Were all too real as we watched and listened, lips meeting now and then

Until the sun came up over the horizon and the scene faded out of existence

With the ebbing tide, leaving me to wake up in my usual spot

All of it left behind, hopefully to be revisited another night

What a delightful scene to have to vacate in lieu of a rainy day spent in a waiting room.

 

Love Letter ~ Take The Leap

Dear beautiful souls,

I wanted to come here today and wish all of you a very happy holiday season. This will be my final post on Pull Up A Toadstool. On January 1st, 2017, I’ll be making the permanent move to my new site thepixiebaby.com.So, It seemed the perfect time to talk about the prevailing energy of the moment.

It is a time for new beginnings and to build on our foundations. I have talked to so many people in the past few weeks who are finding themselves experiencing tremendous growth and a readiness to take a bold leap into the life they’ve dreamed of. For many of us, the biggest hurdles we’ve had to leap are the limitations in our own mind. The messages of not being good enough, the fear of failure, the fear of success, old programming…and on it goes.

There is a definite change in the air for many right now. While the touch of fear still lingers, the desire for change and growth seems to be prevailing for many of us. We have this life to live and for many, our fears have kept us from living it. My final message to you from Pull Up A Toadstool is one of encouragement. The time is ripe to move ahead with our dreams and the plans of the last several years.

We are at the tail end of a 9 year cycle, which means that we are at a time of completion and setting our foundation for the next  9 year cycle. We have but a short time to set our firm intentions to begin reaping the benefits of releasing what no longer works and taking action in moving toward what makes our hearts beat with excitement. This isn’t to say that we have to have it “all together” by January 1st. Just that now is the time to get the energy firmly flowing in that direction.

The time that we are living in is tumultuous and exciting at the same time. There’s a lot to take in right now. Please remember to take care of yourselves in the midst of all of the hoopla. Allow time to just be, just breathe, and for a nice dose of joy and laughter. Taking care of all aspects of self is key right now. The era of wearing neglect of any sort as a badge of honor is over. Martyrdom is neither necessary or the goal, despite what you may have been taught. Self care is step number one in any endeavor.

In closing, I want to thank you for all of the years you’ve been with me here. I look forward to continuing our journey on the new site after the new year. Please be kind to yourselves and one another. Just remember that kindness is not the same as being a doormat. Balance in all things. Don’t be afraid to say no, don’t be afraid to say yes…it’s time to be your true self and build the life that reflects what you wish to see when you peer into the looking glass.

See you January 1st!

Much love,

Tracy

 

Love Letter ~ Growth Opportunities

Dear beautiful souls,

Going through challenging or confusing things in our lives is a lot like being caught up in the vortex of a tornado while in the midst of the situation. One of the most important things to remember when we’re in the process of learning a lesson or experiencing a growing pain is to permit ourselves to feel what we feel. Squashing our feelings is so common for many of us, especially those who were taught early on that expression of feelings is a negative thing.

Eventually, most of us learn that feeling is better than squashing. It can just take us a while to trust that part of ourselves.  As a dear friend stated just today…feeling our feelings…even the negative ones, is a good thing. She also pointed out that we need  to remember to transform it at some point into a positive. Her point was timely and well absorbed. Hence, the lesson is received. Finding the balance between reaction and flowing into the growth can be difficult for most of us. Try not to be too hard on yourself while finding your way.

Not only is it important to take it easy on ourselves, we need to be mindful of the outside influences which we are permitting to impact our journey. When going through periods of transformation, it is natural for the order in our lives to become shaken up for a while. This is another element of the lesson or growth opportunity. Through our largest periods of growth and learning, there are bound to be some emotions lurking beneath the surface, waiting to rear their heads. Relationships may come and go, jobs or careers might change, sometimes even entire belief systems undergo an overhaul.

This is not work for the faint of heart my lovelies, but it is well worth it. Walking the path to wisdom is a lot like trying to tame a horse…there’s going to be a good bit of bucking along the way…both from within and without. Hold on tight and ride, until the stuff which isn’t serving your highest good is left in the dust. All of the madness will eventually lead to ever higher levels of love and understanding. Don’t give up now. Hold on to your heart and dive in. Just don’t forget to infuse a little levity along the way.

Much love,

Tracy

 

Love Letter ~ Beauty

Dear beautiful souls,

When you think about beauty, what first springs to mind? Is it some spectacular vision of a person of supermodel caliber? Is it an amazing natural vista? Perhaps a masterful piece of art or music? Yes, of course, it could be any of those things. Most of us appreciate those types of beauty. What about the more simple things though?

There are those times when it feels more difficult than others to find beauty. Right now, so many of us are feeling unsettled by so many events happening in the world around us which made this love letter an especially important one for me to write. With some many things in our every day lives which hold so much beauty, read on for a list of simple, but powerful things of beauty for those times in which it might seem more difficult than usual to see it.

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  • That first luxurious moment upon waking in the morning when you drift warmly between sleep and waking.
  • The small moments of silence when there are no electronics running in the background.
  • The rich aroma of freshly brewing coffee.
  • Sharing laughter with our loved ones, friends, and at particularly beautiful moments with total strangers.
  • Hearing the voices of the people who make our worlds a brighter place.
  • Being enfolded into the embrace of those who make us feel safe…who embody the feeling of being home.
  • Opening a window and feeling a fresh breeze on our faces.
  • Enjoying the warmth of sunshine streaming through a window on a chilly day.
  • The simple pleasure of spending time doing the little things we love to do.
  • Sinking into a nice hot bath or standing under an invigorating shower.
  • Feeling the thrill which comes with connecting with someone new.
  • The colors that come to life in the sky as the sun lowers in the evening.
  • Seeing the first pops of color in the Spring as flowers bloom or in Autumn as leaves change color.
  • Those magical, misty mornings when the fog swirls through the air as rain gently falls.
  • Reading a good book, or watching a good show or movie.
  • The smile on the face of a stranger as you hold the door for them as they balance bags and coffee.

Of course there are so many more things which are everyday events which are so beautiful, many even almost sensual. Think about first waking on a chilly morning, ensconced in soft warm blankets, and how good that feels. So simple, so beautiful. In these times of rapid change, it is so important to seek out and savor those small moments of beauty. Our attitudes and frame of mind are so powerful. Won’t you join me in seeking out the simple moments which make this life so breathtakingly gorgeous?

Much love,

Tracy

Love Letter ~ Sitting With It

Dear beautiful souls,

There are times in each of our lives in which we simply do not know which direction to turn. There could be any number of situations that leave us feeling this way. Sometimes the only thing which we can do is to simply sit with it. There are times in which continuing to search for a solution or answer just deepens the feelings of confusion or frustration.

While it isn’t as though we can entirely forget about things which may be troubling us, we can find a space of relative peace in which we play the role of the observer, allowing things to play out for a while. Being the observer when things aren’t exactly going according to plan is definitely a learned skill, and it isn’t even as though once it is learned that it is forever automatic.

Our humanity, and the nature of life, with all of its cycles…and ups and downs, make the role of observer more of a practice than a learned skill. While it gets easier to bring things into that space with time, please do not feel as though you are doing something wrong if it sometimes takes a while to reign in the fear, anger, or other feelings which are part of our existence. Taking up the practice of observing is one which can be entered into by anyone, no matter what their belief system (or lack thereof).

Whether you believe in higher beings, universal energy, or just follow the natural order of life-one thing is certain. In time the answer, way out, way up, or solution always becomes apparent. And, sometimes it is when we sit back for a little while and observe that the greatest milestones in our lives happen. Call it a trust in the power that is, or simply a practical knowledge of the inevitability of change. Either way you slice it, there is a certain type of tranquility which comes with simply being for a while. It isn’t the same thing as resignation. It is a deep wisdom which comes with the understanding that we do not always have an immediate solution…that sometimes things have to run their course for a while.

Sometimes the best thing that we can do for ourselves is take a deep breath, take a nap, take a walk, and let whatever the issue is fade into the background for a while. In the time between dissatisfaction and improvement, there is still a life to be lived and believe it or not, much to appreciate. Be gentle, don’t force it, don’t beat yourself up. Sit with things for a while.

Much love,

Tracy

Love Letter…Trust

Dear beautiful souls,

In these uncertain times that we are living in, trust may seem like an odd topic to write to you about. It is at times like these however, that trust is more important than ever. Trust in the general goodness of most people, trust that the universe has abundant resources with which we can have our needs met, trust in those that we love, trust in the fact that we are never truly all alone, and most important of all…trust in ourselves. It can be easy during times of unrest to start allowing seeds of negative thought and self-doubt to creep in.

I cannot stress how important it is to look back over our lives to other difficult times, as a reminder that we made it through them. No, not with a critical eye of how well we think we managed to get through it…simply that we made it. Not only that, but it would also be wise to remind ourselves that we are powerful beings with the ability to take control of our lives. This doesn’t mean that we can micromanage every detail of our lives. We can though control each individual moment of our day, in that we get to decide how we react to that moment and how we are going to move ahead from that point forward.

It is absolutely normal to be upset when things which seem negative happen. Having trust in ourselves doesn’t mean that we should strive to trust ourselves to be perfect. Trust is knowing that even when things do not look as we would like them to look, that we know that ultimately we are going to be just fine. It is then, when we practice that level of trust in ourselves and the universe that not only freedom, but true magic can be found.

When we relinquish the situations over which we have no direct or immediate control, we free ourselves to focus on what we actually can do…if anything in that moment. Sometimes trust means allowing ourselves to ride the wave until we reach the other side of it and can make sense of what has happened, and where to go from there. This isn’t always the easiest thing to do. I know this from many years of past experience. What I know now though is that there is no amount of trying to control or predict (playing the what if game) everything and/or everyone that will force things to go in the way in which we wish them to.

What we can do is to keep ourselves as calm and positive as we can…learning little by little to have trust. To allow ourselves to visualize things in a more positive light without being attached to the small details of how it has to happen. No need to point the finger of blame at ourselves if we slide back for a little while. Having trust is seeing that slide and dusting ourselves off, knowing that we have what it takes to move forward.

Believe in yourselves, for you have a lot more power dwelling inside you than you may realize. Power to create and transform your reality…power to choose to be open to seeing the positive aspects of what enters your life, as well as what may leave it. This power is already yours. You only need to claim it.

Much love,

Tracy

Love Letter ~ Love All Of You, Yes…All

Dear beautiful souls,

We all have parts of ourselves which feel more difficult to love than others. Today, I’m going to share with you one of the parts of myself which used to be my touchiest subject. Since I was a young child, I’ve been able to see and communicate with the dead. Not only that, but I’ve always known things that I’ve had no way of knowing. In my house, this was not cool. In my community, this was not cool. In my parent’s religion this was definitely not cool. It didn’t take long for me to learn to fear and loathe this part of myself. There was no support. I’m not telling you this in order to elicit pity. Those early trials have made coming to acceptance and love of this part of myself all the sweeter.

Over the years, the negative feelings which I had around that part of myself led to many different types of manifestations…psychological, emotional, and physical. By the time I finally realized that I could examine this aspect of me for myself, instead of going by everyone else’s word for it, a lot of damage had been done. My self-esteem was very low, I lived in a lot of fear because try as I might, I couldn’t just turn it off completely, and my immune system and weight were not in a good place due to all the stress. As a matter of fact, I’m still working on the repair aspect after almost four decades of imbalance.

So, what led me to seeing things for myself? After many years, I was able to turn around and look at all of the people who had told me how “bad” this part of me was. Let me tell you, they were no role models. I’m not saying that they were all horrible people. It’s just that all of them had their own stuff and some of it was way more damning than my stuff. Nope, this isn’t about judgement of them either. That phase is also in the past. Admittedly, I carried some anger around for a while. At the same time I was able to look objectively at that particular aspect of myself and see it for what it really is, a gift.

The best advice that I can give to any of you who are on the road to loving all of yourselves is this…begin to think for yourself. Ask yourself how YOU really feel about that part of you. At first it might be easier to ask how you would see someone else who shared that particular trait or aspect with you. It is my best guess that most of you will say that you’d accept whatever it is in someone else with no questions, or at least without harsh judgement. See what happened there? You’re no different. Begin to see yourself through the lenses of your own eyes. Let others worry about their own views.

Of course, if you find after very careful examination that there is a part of you which doesn’t fit with who you really are and who you aspire to be, you can begin to do something about it. Something which doesn’t involve hate or blame. Love that part of yourself and thank it for its lessons, then begin to shift more in the direction of who you truly are and what values you wish to embrace. There’s no need for judgement. It only keeps you low for longer than you need to be.

Love yourselves with all you’ve got. You are the only you that will ever be…and you are amazing!

Much love,

Tracy