Glimpse Into My Day

Today has been a wonderful day of happy surprises and beautiful things. First and foremost, my best friend from way back in the fifth grade is having a VERY special day today and I couldn’t be more tickled. Only thing that would have made it better would be if I could have been there .

Before my day got started I had a few conversations with friends both old and new, as well as getting to hear a voice that always makes me smile while having coffee.

My day is being spent gloriously happy. I’m editing my poetry book.

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I got an early delivery of a massive amount of acrylic paint to further explore my newfound painting method, which someone was sweet enough to surprise me with. I have more paint sitting here which was gifted to me by my sister, but I won’t be unboxing that until she is here visiting. Can’t wait to see them! Last night I came across a fantastic sale on canvases and ordered a batch of 20- 16×20″. So, be prepared to see a lot of new art posts in the near future.

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Last but not least, I ordered some flowers last week from a local florist and she called to let me know that they were in. I’ve been craving a big bouquet of peonies and hydrangeas for the past few years and decided to treat myself.

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Now that I’ve gotten all of the deliveries in the door, it’s time to get back to editing. Just thought I’d share a glimpse of my day with all of you. Hope that you are having some happy moments of your own today.

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Love Letter ~ Sitting With It

Dear beautiful souls,

There are times in each of our lives in which we simply do not know which direction to turn. There could be any number of situations that leave us feeling this way. Sometimes the only thing which we can do is to simply sit with it. There are times in which continuing to search for a solution or answer just deepens the feelings of confusion or frustration.

While it isn’t as though we can entirely forget about things which may be troubling us, we can find a space of relative peace in which we play the role of the observer, allowing things to play out for a while. Being the observer when things aren’t exactly going according to plan is definitely a learned skill, and it isn’t even as though once it is learned that it is forever automatic.

Our humanity, and the nature of life, with all of its cycles…and ups and downs, make the role of observer more of a practice than a learned skill. While it gets easier to bring things into that space with time, please do not feel as though you are doing something wrong if it sometimes takes a while to reign in the fear, anger, or other feelings which are part of our existence. Taking up the practice of observing is one which can be entered into by anyone, no matter what their belief system (or lack thereof).

Whether you believe in higher beings, universal energy, or just follow the natural order of life-one thing is certain. In time the answer, way out, way up, or solution always becomes apparent. And, sometimes it is when we sit back for a little while and observe that the greatest milestones in our lives happen. Call it a trust in the power that is, or simply a practical knowledge of the inevitability of change. Either way you slice it, there is a certain type of tranquility which comes with simply being for a while. It isn’t the same thing as resignation. It is a deep wisdom which comes with the understanding that we do not always have an immediate solution…that sometimes things have to run their course for a while.

Sometimes the best thing that we can do for ourselves is take a deep breath, take a nap, take a walk, and let whatever the issue is fade into the background for a while. In the time between dissatisfaction and improvement, there is still a life to be lived and believe it or not, much to appreciate. Be gentle, don’t force it, don’t beat yourself up. Sit with things for a while.

Much love,

Tracy

Love Letter ~ Love All Of You, Yes…All

Dear beautiful souls,

We all have parts of ourselves which feel more difficult to love than others. Today, I’m going to share with you one of the parts of myself which used to be my touchiest subject. Since I was a young child, I’ve been able to see and communicate with the dead. Not only that, but I’ve always known things that I’ve had no way of knowing. In my house, this was not cool. In my community, this was not cool. In my parent’s religion this was definitely not cool. It didn’t take long for me to learn to fear and loathe this part of myself. There was no support. I’m not telling you this in order to elicit pity. Those early trials have made coming to acceptance and love of this part of myself all the sweeter.

Over the years, the negative feelings which I had around that part of myself led to many different types of manifestations…psychological, emotional, and physical. By the time I finally realized that I could examine this aspect of me for myself, instead of going by everyone else’s word for it, a lot of damage had been done. My self-esteem was very low, I lived in a lot of fear because try as I might, I couldn’t just turn it off completely, and my immune system and weight were not in a good place due to all the stress. As a matter of fact, I’m still working on the repair aspect after almost four decades of imbalance.

So, what led me to seeing things for myself? After many years, I was able to turn around and look at all of the people who had told me how “bad” this part of me was. Let me tell you, they were no role models. I’m not saying that they were all horrible people. It’s just that all of them had their own stuff and some of it was way more damning than my stuff. Nope, this isn’t about judgement of them either. That phase is also in the past. Admittedly, I carried some anger around for a while. At the same time I was able to look objectively at that particular aspect of myself and see it for what it really is, a gift.

The best advice that I can give to any of you who are on the road to loving all of yourselves is this…begin to think for yourself. Ask yourself how YOU really feel about that part of you. At first it might be easier to ask how you would see someone else who shared that particular trait or aspect with you. It is my best guess that most of you will say that you’d accept whatever it is in someone else with no questions, or at least without harsh judgement. See what happened there? You’re no different. Begin to see yourself through the lenses of your own eyes. Let others worry about their own views.

Of course, if you find after very careful examination that there is a part of you which doesn’t fit with who you really are and who you aspire to be, you can begin to do something about it. Something which doesn’t involve hate or blame. Love that part of yourself and thank it for its lessons, then begin to shift more in the direction of who you truly are and what values you wish to embrace. There’s no need for judgement. It only keeps you low for longer than you need to be.

Love yourselves with all you’ve got. You are the only you that will ever be…and you are amazing!

Much love,

Tracy

Momentum

Last week, I made mention of the importance of momentum this year. There are several factors, most important being numerological, which make keeping things rolling very important for the remainder of this year. In numerology time goes in nine year cycles, with a a 1 year being for new beginnings or fresh starts and a 9 year being for bringing things to completion or fruition. This year is a 9 year, and this is how:

2016= 2+0+1+6 which = 9

While we are more than half way through this year, it is not too late to kick things into gear if you haven’t already. Think back over the course of the past 9 years, and bring to mind the things which you have been thinking about wishing to accomplish the most or that you may have even taken some preliminary steps with. These are the things that you will wish to focus on for the remainder of this year.

Make decisions about whether you still wish to follow through with all of the things which have drifted into your awareness over the past 9 year cycle. If you have some things which no longer resonate with you (we all will, more than likely), this is the time to set them free and concentrate on what matters most to you. When we keep holding onto things which no longer ring true, it is so easy to allow ourselves to become stuck due to guilt over not accomplishing those things. So, right now the biggest favor that you can do for yourself is to honestly evaluate what you’d like to see get finished this year. Once you get it figured out, you can set yourself free and take action on the things that matter.

Since we are so far into the year, it’s key to not take too long with your evaluation process. Listen to your heart, as it already knows the answer anyway. Please allow hope and optimism to be your guides through the coming months. While there is some urgency about all of this, keep in mind that the time is right for manifesting wonderful things. Keep stress out of the equation as much as possible and give yourself permission to dream big. Now more than most times, positive visualization is your friend.

See yourself successful in what ever it is that you wish to achieve. Really see yourself as you wish to be and where you wish to be, feel the feelings of success, incorporate textures and scents etc. While it is important to follow your instincts with action, try not to get bogged down in the details. Listen to the whispers of your soul and your guides/angels/God/Goddess. The upcoming four months are not the time for the what if game. Believe in yourself and dream big. Know that I’ll be here wishing for your dreams to come true…and then some.

When Hearts And Minds Meet

Monday’s post was about coming together with people that we love and how wonderful that can be. I said that I would be back later this week to talk a little more about it, so here I am. My amazing cousin made the long drive to visit with my sister and myself for a long weekend and it was like a retreat for all of us. She stayed at my place, and my sister came to hang out for a few hours each day that she was here.

Of course we shared a lot of laughter and memories, which was healing in and of itself. As if just being together wasn’t gift enough, we experienced so many things which could only be described as magical that it would be difficult to list them all. There were readings, energy work, super healthy nutrition, teas, and late night chats about spiritual topics. It felt like I had a weekend retreat at my own house…yep, it was that good.

Though it wasn’t planned or even discussed before my cousin got here, the three of us spontaneously began work on a project which we first discussed around two years ago. It is still in such an early phase that I’m not ready to say anything more about it. What I do want to talk about is how amazing it is that we were able to take three people, bringing their individual perspectives and experiences together in such a smooth way that it is a joy. Collaborating like this has been a long held dream for me. This seems to be the year for long held wishes coming true around here.The way that things flowed so smoothly and the sheer amount of work that we got done felt so natural that all of us remarked that it was obviously meant to happen.

As we get further into the project I’ll give more details about what it is, because it’s definitely exciting. Right now though, my wish was to talk about the healing effects of spending time in communion with people with whom we can connect to on a heart, mind, and spiritual level. Experiencing a weekend like this has been so rejuvenating and life affirming that it is hard to describe adequately with words. How does a person fully describe how wonderful a full heart and renewed hope feel? It isn’t something which is easy to convey. One evening as we sat around the table, I had an emotional moment because what we were doing and how it felt was so deeply good that it fulfilled a long held vision of sitting around with a few people brainstorming, sharing, and enjoying.

Earlier this year, my aunt came for a visit and other than the collaboration on a project, the connections and overall sweetness of the visit was every bit as amazing. This year truly has been a gift in this respect, and it isn’t over yet. I have a few more people coming in later this year and I’m looking forward to those experiences as well. My heart is receiving so much healing and I’m full of gratitude. This is something which everyone needs sometimes. The experiences of deep connection and collaboration definitely have me ready for more.

I have a good bit of work to do, both on this new project, on my novel which is with my editor, and on a book of poetry that I’ve been putting together in spare moments. The beauty is that none of this seems like work. It feels good to have so many things flowing and coming together. My hope is that many of you are also seeing things coming together and are experiencing joy and following your hearts. Even though we’ve crossed over the halfway point of this year, this is definitely the year to get things rolling. I’ll talk more about the importance of momentum this year in a post next week.

 

Living A Heartful Life

When thinking of a word which would best describe what I’d like to convey this week, the word heartful came to mind. The definition of the word is: full of heartfelt emotion or to have a connection to the heart. Over the last while, thoughts of what materials go into building our best lives have been flitting around in my mind a great deal. While I could go on about all of the things that I’ve tried, read, experimented with, meditated on and worked through in my questioning-there’s really no need, as the answer is simple.

When it comes to what goes into building the best lives that we can for ourselves, the answers lie within the heart. The old saying about productivity-if it feels like work, you’re doing it wrong-is true across the board. Finding the right balance can feel a bit tricky at times as we all have responsibilities, needs, dreams and goals. At times it seems as though living from the heart is counter-intuitive when it comes to meeting responsibilities. Nothing could be further from the truth.

This isn’t to say that I recommend throwing all caution and responsibility to the wind to your detriment. I do recommend though, making sure that we are doing something each and every day to shift our lives toward as seamless a transition between our work and play lives as possible. As doing this isn’t something which most of us are taught or encouraged to do, you can expect a a few growing pains along the way as you move closer to living a life of joy and fulfillment. You may encounter feelings of uncertainty within yourself, disapproval or criticism from others or possibly some of both as you move forward.

The hows and whats of what a heartful life looks like is completely up to you. For all of us though, the simple question which leads us there is the same. Not only is the primary question the same for all of us, asking and answering it of ourselves often will never fail to keep us on the right track.

Are the things that you are spending the majority of your thoughts and time on things which have the capacity to connect all of the elements of your life with a thread of joy?