The Page Is Where A Poet…

Hello everyone,

Over the past several days, I’ve been posting some very emotional poetry. Even though I do not feel that it is necessary to come here and explain a few things, I will…just because…just to make things clear.

Poets not only smile, dance, and explore the world on the page. We also cry, bleed, heal, and process on the page. So, when you see poetry of the nature I’ve been posting lately it isn’t that I am looking for pity, or feeling like the world has ended. It simply means that I am hurting, and that poetry is a good way for me to allow the pain to wash through me.  Notice that I am only speaking for myself here. There may be others who use poems like these to try to garner attention or as cries for help. Mine are simply me, expressing what is in my heart and sharing all of that with whoever may read it, for a few reasons.

First and foremost…umm…I’m a poet and I love to write and read all sorts of poetry. Secondly, I’ve always believed that words are powerful tools for healing and understanding. Not to mention that painting pictures with words is a fantastic alternative way to share our vision of the world and ourselves.

I truly appreciate and welcome all of the support which I’ve received from those of you who have reached out. Please do not take this post as me asking any of you to back off or leave me alone. I just want anyone who may be wondering to know that I am way more resilient than to allow a broken heart to make me wave the white flag on life.  I will get through this, and I want to thank the dear people who have been so lovely and supportive. It just takes time. While I cannot promise that there won’t be any more of this heart wrenching material appearing here in the coming days or weeks, just know that I will be fine, and if I’m not…those of you who love and care about me will be the first to know.

I’ve enjoyed sharing a little bit more about what beats in the heart of this poet. Hope that for those of you who do not wax poetic yourselves, that this post has given you some insight as to how deeply poetry pervades the lives of those of us who imbibe.

Lots of love,

Tracy

Love Letter ~ Take The Leap

Dear beautiful souls,

I wanted to come here today and wish all of you a very happy holiday season. This will be my final post on Pull Up A Toadstool. On January 1st, 2017, I’ll be making the permanent move to my new site thepixiebaby.com.So, It seemed the perfect time to talk about the prevailing energy of the moment.

It is a time for new beginnings and to build on our foundations. I have talked to so many people in the past few weeks who are finding themselves experiencing tremendous growth and a readiness to take a bold leap into the life they’ve dreamed of. For many of us, the biggest hurdles we’ve had to leap are the limitations in our own mind. The messages of not being good enough, the fear of failure, the fear of success, old programming…and on it goes.

There is a definite change in the air for many right now. While the touch of fear still lingers, the desire for change and growth seems to be prevailing for many of us. We have this life to live and for many, our fears have kept us from living it. My final message to you from Pull Up A Toadstool is one of encouragement. The time is ripe to move ahead with our dreams and the plans of the last several years.

We are at the tail end of a 9 year cycle, which means that we are at a time of completion and setting our foundation for the next  9 year cycle. We have but a short time to set our firm intentions to begin reaping the benefits of releasing what no longer works and taking action in moving toward what makes our hearts beat with excitement. This isn’t to say that we have to have it “all together” by January 1st. Just that now is the time to get the energy firmly flowing in that direction.

The time that we are living in is tumultuous and exciting at the same time. There’s a lot to take in right now. Please remember to take care of yourselves in the midst of all of the hoopla. Allow time to just be, just breathe, and for a nice dose of joy and laughter. Taking care of all aspects of self is key right now. The era of wearing neglect of any sort as a badge of honor is over. Martyrdom is neither necessary or the goal, despite what you may have been taught. Self care is step number one in any endeavor.

In closing, I want to thank you for all of the years you’ve been with me here. I look forward to continuing our journey on the new site after the new year. Please be kind to yourselves and one another. Just remember that kindness is not the same as being a doormat. Balance in all things. Don’t be afraid to say no, don’t be afraid to say yes…it’s time to be your true self and build the life that reflects what you wish to see when you peer into the looking glass.

See you January 1st!

Much love,

Tracy

 

Love Letter ~ Beauty

Dear beautiful souls,

When you think about beauty, what first springs to mind? Is it some spectacular vision of a person of supermodel caliber? Is it an amazing natural vista? Perhaps a masterful piece of art or music? Yes, of course, it could be any of those things. Most of us appreciate those types of beauty. What about the more simple things though?

There are those times when it feels more difficult than others to find beauty. Right now, so many of us are feeling unsettled by so many events happening in the world around us which made this love letter an especially important one for me to write. With some many things in our every day lives which hold so much beauty, read on for a list of simple, but powerful things of beauty for those times in which it might seem more difficult than usual to see it.

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  • That first luxurious moment upon waking in the morning when you drift warmly between sleep and waking.
  • The small moments of silence when there are no electronics running in the background.
  • The rich aroma of freshly brewing coffee.
  • Sharing laughter with our loved ones, friends, and at particularly beautiful moments with total strangers.
  • Hearing the voices of the people who make our worlds a brighter place.
  • Being enfolded into the embrace of those who make us feel safe…who embody the feeling of being home.
  • Opening a window and feeling a fresh breeze on our faces.
  • Enjoying the warmth of sunshine streaming through a window on a chilly day.
  • The simple pleasure of spending time doing the little things we love to do.
  • Sinking into a nice hot bath or standing under an invigorating shower.
  • Feeling the thrill which comes with connecting with someone new.
  • The colors that come to life in the sky as the sun lowers in the evening.
  • Seeing the first pops of color in the Spring as flowers bloom or in Autumn as leaves change color.
  • Those magical, misty mornings when the fog swirls through the air as rain gently falls.
  • Reading a good book, or watching a good show or movie.
  • The smile on the face of a stranger as you hold the door for them as they balance bags and coffee.

Of course there are so many more things which are everyday events which are so beautiful, many even almost sensual. Think about first waking on a chilly morning, ensconced in soft warm blankets, and how good that feels. So simple, so beautiful. In these times of rapid change, it is so important to seek out and savor those small moments of beauty. Our attitudes and frame of mind are so powerful. Won’t you join me in seeking out the simple moments which make this life so breathtakingly gorgeous?

Much love,

Tracy

Thank You

Yesterday wrapped up my 60 Days Of Haiku project. I want to thank all of you who have been following along, and hope that you have enjoyed it as much as I have. Over the course of these past few months, I have developed an even deeper fondness for Haiku poetry, and just know that I’ll be doing more.

Things have been incredibly busy in my life lately, so bear with me if posts are a little sporadic for just a while. I will be here at least a few days a week and hope to be getting back into some artwork in the near future. Realistically, the art probably will not happen until after the holiday season wraps up, but hey…you never know.

As I settle into my new routines, I am finding that my biggest task at hand is finding a balance between work and personal life. This however, is a challenge that I am happy to have at the moment. I am very fortunate to have the wonderful friends and family that I have. The presence of such a lovely support team means a lot.

I’m hoping to sit down over the weekend and put together a thing or two for next week. Admittedly, I have no idea what that might be, so it looks like the muse is going to be leading the way.

Sending you much gratitude and wishing you a lovely weekend!

Much love,

Tracy

 

Love Letter…Trust

Dear beautiful souls,

In these uncertain times that we are living in, trust may seem like an odd topic to write to you about. It is at times like these however, that trust is more important than ever. Trust in the general goodness of most people, trust that the universe has abundant resources with which we can have our needs met, trust in those that we love, trust in the fact that we are never truly all alone, and most important of all…trust in ourselves. It can be easy during times of unrest to start allowing seeds of negative thought and self-doubt to creep in.

I cannot stress how important it is to look back over our lives to other difficult times, as a reminder that we made it through them. No, not with a critical eye of how well we think we managed to get through it…simply that we made it. Not only that, but it would also be wise to remind ourselves that we are powerful beings with the ability to take control of our lives. This doesn’t mean that we can micromanage every detail of our lives. We can though control each individual moment of our day, in that we get to decide how we react to that moment and how we are going to move ahead from that point forward.

It is absolutely normal to be upset when things which seem negative happen. Having trust in ourselves doesn’t mean that we should strive to trust ourselves to be perfect. Trust is knowing that even when things do not look as we would like them to look, that we know that ultimately we are going to be just fine. It is then, when we practice that level of trust in ourselves and the universe that not only freedom, but true magic can be found.

When we relinquish the situations over which we have no direct or immediate control, we free ourselves to focus on what we actually can do…if anything in that moment. Sometimes trust means allowing ourselves to ride the wave until we reach the other side of it and can make sense of what has happened, and where to go from there. This isn’t always the easiest thing to do. I know this from many years of past experience. What I know now though is that there is no amount of trying to control or predict (playing the what if game) everything and/or everyone that will force things to go in the way in which we wish them to.

What we can do is to keep ourselves as calm and positive as we can…learning little by little to have trust. To allow ourselves to visualize things in a more positive light without being attached to the small details of how it has to happen. No need to point the finger of blame at ourselves if we slide back for a little while. Having trust is seeing that slide and dusting ourselves off, knowing that we have what it takes to move forward.

Believe in yourselves, for you have a lot more power dwelling inside you than you may realize. Power to create and transform your reality…power to choose to be open to seeing the positive aspects of what enters your life, as well as what may leave it. This power is already yours. You only need to claim it.

Much love,

Tracy

Love Letter ~ Do Unto Yourself As You Would Do Unto Others

Dear beautiful souls,

How many times have you heard the old adage to do unto others as you would have them do unto you? Probably more than you can shake a stick at, just as I have. I’ve come to realize that something important has been left out when it comes to this notion, which is the title of this post.

Have you ever thought about how much easier it would be to treat others kindly, if we were to begin with being kind to ourselves? Many of us are much more harsh with ourselves than we would ever dream of being with someone else. Now, before you go pointing the finger of blame at yourself for being guilty of that…stop. That’s what this post is all about.

The way that we think about and treat ourselves directly impacts how we treat and react to others. This is beside the point though, because this post is about us personally. Many of us were taught that it is selfish to think of ourselves and/or to live our lives through a lens of how our words and actions make other people feel. While it is important that we not go around with no regard to others at all, to imply that we are way less important than others is a recipe for a lot of heartache.

If only for a few weeks, please try something for me. Next time you find yourself downgrading yourself, reframe it somehow. If there’s something that you’re less than pleased with, instead of beating yourself up about it, ask how you can proactively begin changing it. Next time you judge yourself harshly for something that you have or haven’t said or done, instead of allowing those thoughts to snowball into excessive guilt and negativity, love yourself…imperfections and all…with an awareness of how it is that you can conduct yourself to maximize your happiness and satisfaction.

When we learn how to treat ourselves, so many other pieces of the puzzle automatically click into place. Remember to take things easy. It isn’t like any of us got the way that we are overnight. As time goes by, you may even realize that some of the things which you were taught were negatives about yourselves are anything but. Step by step, with patience and gentleness, you can find a balance in kindness which is for your highest good.

I’d love to hear a little about your own journeys on the road to treating yourselves with the same dignity and respect as you afford others.

Much love,

Tracy

Love Letter ~ Right Where You Are

Dear beautiful souls,

In this fast-paced world that we live in, many of us have gotten so accustomed to looking at life through the lens of time, instead of in the moment. From a young age we are taught to prepare for “someday”, “the future”, and to “look back at our mistakes”. While a little bit of planning and reflection are not bad things, always living or looking to the past and future make self acceptance and overall success and satisfaction difficult.

After all, if we are constantly looking at our perhaps less than ideal current conditions, blaming ourselves due to the past, it truly isn’t productive. At the same time, if we are always looking to the future for ways to improve our lives or our selves, that isn’t productive either.

There’s a lot to be said for this very moment, right here, right now. When we retrain ourselves or deepen our awareness and appreciation for what is in front of us at any given moment, a brilliant thing happens. All of that stress we’ve been carrying around like a monkey on our back because we’ve been looking back at all of our mistakes? Gone. The anxiety we feel about not only how we’re going to get from point a to point b, but if we’re even capable of achieving it? Gone.

Being present in the now is one of the biggest gifts which we can give to ourselves. You see, when you take away the shame and blame of the past and the fear about the future, what you’re left with is an increased appreciation for yourself, your life, and what is around you. It opens the doors to ever increasing self love, clarity, and relaxation. It’s so much easier to find solutions to things when we are focused on the present moment, as opposed to trying to figure out every possible outcome or fork in the road or comparing to the past.

Please, give yourself permission to release yourself from the chains of time. Be here, now. Taking off the filters of someday and yesterday is like turning on the windshield wipers when it’s pouring rain…everything clears right up. What we did or didn’t do in the past is just that…past. What might happen next year if x,y, or z does or doesn’t happen is just a maybe.

The one piece in time which we always have some control over is now. Learning to live in the now takes practice, just like any new skill. No matter what your path in life, there’s a lot to be learned about being in the now from Zen Buddhism. So, if you find yourself looking for tips and advice on living in the moment try looking at a few Zen websites or checking out a book or two (just so you know, I’m not a Buddhist, I just have a deep appreciation for the philosophy). Making our way into the present is making our way to a beautiful, calmer, more joyful life, which is my wish for each and every one of us.

With love and wishes for ever growing peace and happiness,

Tracy ❤