While I have nothing creative to share with you today, I wanted to let all of you know that I’m still here. Right now things are still in a state of suspended animation and may very well remain that way for a few more weeks. Over the last two days, I’ve at least been able to be still and sit in my own space without feeling like I’m crawling out of my skin. Part of this is because I know that I need to allow myself to be with my thoughts, another part is that I truly feel the desire for solitude right now, and the final part is that my autoimmune and neurological issues have reared their heads in a pretty big way and I know that I have to slow down.
Due to time constraints, not to mention the fact that my mind will only let me be inactive for so long, I’ll be making a creative comeback within the next week. I have a jam packed, wonderful October planned. For those of you out there who know me and worry…please don’t. I’m fine and I will be fine. I’m making plans for next week to keep me out of a rut. What I’ve learned over the years and in the past few weeks in an accelerated fashion is how important it is to strike a balance which honors who we are and what our needs are, and right here and now, my need is to be still and frankly…alone. I truly appreciate all of the love, support, and listening ears over the past few weeks. There is a need now however to turn inward for my answers for a few days. Not only that, but I need to trust those answers, and not second guess myself about them. There is one answer which I am already sure that I trust (yes J…you), but a few others which I need to reflect on.
One of the things I’ll be doing for the remainder of this week is devoting some quiet time to asking myself what all of that means for me right now. So, while awaiting the other half of one particular puzzle to figure out where, if anywhere, they will choose to fit…I am stripping things down to the core of just me…where do I want to be…what do I want to be doing. These answers will be the same no matter what the outcome of the other situation is. Anything further than the very basics of my own personal stuff has to be put on hold for now, and that just has to be okay, no matter how trying and exhausting it may be. Be back soon with some creations to share!
I also wish to say a few words about the recent natural disaster taking place in the southern United States. My heart goes out to everyone impacted by the storm. I can’t even imagine what they are going through because I’ve never been through anything near that magnitude when it comes to the weather. It’s going to be a long road ahead for so many people as they rebuild and recover. Times like these make many of us more mindful of the lives of our fellow humans beings. Love and kindness go a long way… as do compassion and action (no matter how big or small we are capable of), each and every day…not just when tragedy strikes.
Be gentle and kind to yourselves too, please. ❤