The sadness washes over me like a tidal wave
As I sit here in the silence, there are echoes of you everywhere
The hairbrush sitting at the ready, waiting for the soft locks
Which my fingers delighted to run through just mere days ago
Toothbrush in the medicine cabinet reminding me of you
And that special smile which filled my heart with so much love
I cannot bear the thought of getting rid of them, even though your voice
No longer fills this place with endless conversations and laughter
Seeing them fills my eyes with yet more tears…they’ve shed so many
The sheer volume which has poured from my eyes is staggering
But, I cannot yet part with the few things which were yours
For at least while they remain, there is a part of you here with me
And at least for a painful moment, I can try to pretend that you’ll walk through the door
It isn’t like I need reminding, for you are everywhere
The jar of honey haunts me, as silly as that may be
For I miss the sound of your spoon stirring tea, and the taste of it on your lips
What was once a place of so much joy feels hollow
And I remain behind, floating numb and grey, the ghost of dead romance
My body shaking with sorrow, remembering that flash in time
When the words I love you spilled from your lips. How quickly it all went away
Almost as though our hopes and dreams never existed, but yet I know they did
For this soul crushing pain will not let me forget
Nor will the bed which mocks me when I try to sleep in it
Or the couch which serves to remind me of how it felt to
Snuggle up in what felt like the safety of your arms
In what I was beginning to believe would be endless evenings of movies and podcasts
Not to mention the countless times we sat and enjoyed episode after episode
Of Picard telling Number One to make it so
Oh, if only I could wield the power of his words and put the air back in the room
So that I could once more take even a single breath which didn’t fill my chest with pain
But alas, I cannot. So here I sit in the silence, waiting for this hell to pass.
My heart aches for you.
Thank you. This is so hard. I appreciate you for being there for me. Love you sis.
This fills my heart with sadness,yet such a beautiful memory of one who’s love has left the physical space ,only to leave a lingering wisp of afterness.Love ,peace and healing ,dear one,xoxo
Thank you, sweet Fran. I appreciate your love and support. xoxo
Sharing this with you and feeling every goddam word. Beautiful piece and so hauntingly accurate. Love you x
Oh, I’m sorry to hear that you are relating to this so well right now. Here’s hoping things clear for both of us soon. Let’s talk soon. Would be better if you were over here or vice versa and we could commiserate over drinks and a punching bag 😉 I love you too my friend xx