This post is a little different from the typical Monday posts in that I usually write about topics which are meant to inspire all of us to do our best. Today I wish to talk about all of the things about myself which aren’t exactly my finer traits, but that I’ve learned to accept. Why? Because sometimes we get so caught up in our quest to be as close to perfect as we can get, or seeming to have our shit somewhat together, that we forget about or gloss over the things that make us human.
So, I’m going to list some of the things about me that I do not usually talk about. The things which sometimes embarrass me, sometimes make me laugh, and even some which while not the best traits make me feel better at times. These are all parts of me that I am unapologetic for, even though some of them are things I work on improving. The only time that apologies are called for, in my opinion, is when we lash out in anger in such a way that it truly hurts another. Alright, the dirt on me…
- I can be very stubborn
- At times, my temper runs pretty hot
- When I decide I’m well and truly done with something or someone, it’s over (and when that happens, I rarely change my mind)
- Sometimes my sense of humor is on the inappropriate side
- I’ve been known to change my mind more often than some people change their socks (It was said to me using those exact words once)
- I’ve also been known to have really awful taste in romantic partners in the past
- Patience is not one of my strongest suits
- My language is far from rated G (thanks mom)
- I’m protective of those I love, and will not hesitate to defend them
- When my heart gets broken, it takes a long time for me to trust again
- I do not handle confrontation well
- I definitely do not handle illnesses and deaths of people I love well
- While I’m pretty forgiving, heaven help you if you lie to me
As you can see, some of my less shiny attributes are pretty tarnished indeed. At the same time many of them have served me well, especially once I learned to channel them properly. We’re all works in progress, and sometimes it feels good to admit it. The entire point of this exercise was to remind both myself and hopefully all of you that while striving for betterment is a great thing that we are all human and sometimes it is in these human moments that we find our strength-or at least laughter.