Where did 2013 go? It just hit me this morning that this year is almost over. I’m not sure about all of you, but this has been one of the quickest passing years of my life. While I was thinking about that, it occurred to me that I needed to give some thought to coming up with the word for 2014…as well as reflect on 2013. Admittedly, I had to look up what word I had chosen. It was Experience.
Wow, 2013 was definitely a year of experiences! Some fantastic and others not so much, but as my dear friend reminded me when I finally talked to her today for the first time in two weeks…we don’t get to choose all good ones. During this year I have experienced self reliance more so than at any other time in my life, and while it sometimes sucked, I am thankful for it. It taught me to be concerned with my own preferences and opinions over and above those of others. I needed that.
A biggie was learning that I absolutely love creating art, and that I am actually decent at it. I also found something out which really surprised me. For quite some time, I had been longing to have access to people and events geared toward the spiritual minded. You see, I had never had an opportunity to see any of it in action…meetings, lectures, etc. Well, now I have and what I learned is that it really doesn’t matter because just because something or someone has a particular label doesn’t make it good…for me. No, I’m not putting anyone down. As long as a person is happy and is getting something of value out of their lives, then I’m all for it. It’s just that I seem to lay somewhere in the middle. I am not seeking total darkness because I can’t survive that. I am not seeking all light and rainbows because I feel that there is way more to life than that…more to reality than that. So, once more I find myself walking my path in a fairly solitary fashion and you know what? It’s great to finally see that I already have what I need inside of me.
Also in 2013 I have experienced love, disappointment, enlightenment, disillusionment, power, weakness, activity, stagnation…hmm do you see the pattern here? What it all seems to come back to is balance. That each part of life and even ourselves has opposing aspects and that the secret is learning to embrace and incorporate them all.
Okay for 2014, I am choosing the word Fearless. It’s time to work hard at the things I love and not allow fear of rejection, failure, and even of success hold me back. Even though it’s hard to admit for most of us, we are our own worst enemies sometimes. I’ve been hugely guilty of this one and the experiences of this year have been crucial in helping me to look at that fear and see it for what it is…insignificant. I mean really…if someone doesn’t like something we’ve done, something we’ve written, something we’ve said, or even just doesn’t like us in general…does it really matter? Nope. So, in 2014 I intend to go about my life fearlessly. No one has ever succeeded at anything without being bold enough to just do it. Most importantly…no one has ever felt at home in their own skin without being fearless enough to live life on their own terms.
What do you wish to see for yourself in 2014?