Silent But Not Still

I’m not ready for part two of the Madwoman series yet, but I figured that it was about time that I come here and let you all know that I haven’t vanished. I’ve been quiet here, but have been pretty busy with other things. There are a few journaling courses that I’m working through, and I have a few more courses waiting in the wings when I’m through with those. The theme for me lately seems to be learning.

Learning more about skills, spirituality, myself, the world around me, and so much more. I’ve finally reached a point in which I’ve realized that I have to slow down and learn more in depth about certain subjects. It isn’t as though I do not have the books to make a good dent in what I need to know. I just have to settle down and do the work. I have stacks of notebooks and piles of pens on hand to take notes.It’s more than just what I can find in books too…it’s stilling myself and assimilating. It’s time to embrace my inner nerd for a while and move beyond the beginner’s material…beyond the stuff for dummies. How can I be fully me and do what I do properly if I’m too flipping lazy to sit still and study?

It hasn’t been all work and no play though. Never is for me! I’ve been doing a little painting and a lot of knitting while watching Netflix…a friend has gotten me hooked on ‘The Ghost Whisperer’. I’ll have to take and post some photos soon of the knitting projects I’ve finished and that I’m working on. There are quite a few. I still have to finish the painting I’m working on too and will get it up here when it’s done as well.

I’ve been spending more time at home lately because I’ve been pretty sick for a few months, worse in the past several weeks, with an infected tooth. The original dentist I went to was a total dunce who at least got me started on some antibiotics, but no way was I going back. He wanted to do a cleaning while I had a raging infection. Umm…no thanks. Then he was trying to bully me into doing something I didn’t want to do. Note to the world…Tracy doesn’t respond well to bullying. I found another dentist but it will still be a few weeks before my appointment. Meanwhile, the infection came roaring back about ten days ago and I was well out of antibiotics. I tried toughing it out and staving it off with garlic and vitamin c…didn’t work out. After running a low grade fever and getting sicker over the past week, I went to my GP yesterday and got more antibiotics to tide me over until the appointment. As you can imagine, my energy levels have been on the low side.

There’s more that I’ve been doing too. I’ve been working and networking with some very cool people as time and energy permit and I’ve taken some time for spending with friends and family too. It’s a busy time and as weird as this might sound I’m sort of thankful that my energy levels aren’t as high as they could be, because at least I am taking some down time instead of running myself into the ground completely…as I tend to do.

The Madwoman book and the dark poetry project are on hold for a little while. I had to make some decisions about how much I can possibly work on at any given time and which ones should take the high spot on the priority list. I’ve still got those things right beside me at all times…not forgotten. Possibly becoming something even more powerful as I work through other things first? Time will tell.

I hope that all is well in your little corners of the world. What has taken center stage for you lately?

12 thoughts on “Silent But Not Still

  1. Hi Tracy, glad things are moving around you. I too have been keeping myself with networking with so many other people who inspire me and help me in improving… Nice to hear from you after a while 🙂 God bless ya!

  2. Lately it's been a lot about the kids, in my little world. lol I'm sorry you've been so sick though. Tooth pain sucks. any pain neck and above is awful. 😦 You made the rite decision leaving that dentist. Hope you feel better!

  3. Dude, I'm sorry you've been feeling so crappy. Boo to bullying dentists! I've surely known a couple. Bah.Good for you on settling down to learn and pacing yourself so you don't overdo it. Enjoy the process!

  4. Oh no! I hope you're feeling better soon and that nasty infection flees your body promptly! Infections are no fun and just wreak havoc on every aspect of your body and life, as does constant pain. Hopefully you can sit in the sunshine for a bit, drink in it's warmth and inhale some good 'ol fashioned fresh air. It does a body good! Lots of healing prayers and energy heading your way.

  5. Aww, thank you MiMi! You are so sweet. Yes…your advice about the fresh air is right. I got out on the roof of my building yesterday for about an hour or so. It was lovely. Thank you so much for the prayers. Mine are with you too!

  6. Really sorry to hear about the tooth. I freaking hate dentists, and when you have one that sucks like the one you mention, that sentiment is only strengthened. Was he trying to get you to agree to some sort of procedure? One besides the cleaning?I think the last time I visited my dentist, and had to get a tooth pulled, I should have looked at my options more and/or sought out another opinion. Live and learn I guess. I can only imagine how drained you have been through it all.I really liked the Dark Side/Madwoman post I just read, and look forward to another installment. As it is, learning is incredibly important, and in doing so you may feel randomly inspired to work on the other project in bits and pieces.As shown, your painting was finished up and it was great! Just keep the creativity flowing!Jak at The Cryton Chronicles & Dreams in the Shade of Ink

  7. Hi Jak, yes…he was trying to push a root canal. And I still can't believe that he wanted to do a cleaning before the infection was cleared up. Seeking other opinions is not a bad thing, I agree. You're right…I've been very drained. Thanks about the Madwoman post. As for working on projects in bits and pieces…lol…that is my modus operandi. Hoping to get installment two out on that post soon. Totally agree about how important learning is. Have I ever told you how awesome your comments are? Well, even if I have…your comments are awesome. 🙂

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