For the past week, I’ve been running around like a crazy chicken. Flitting from place to place, walking every day, visiting with people, working on projects, etc. The one thing I wasn’t doing was stilling myself…slowing down to allow ideas and inspiration to form…not to mention to allow myself to simply be at peace. Well yesterday the Universe delivered a smack to the back of my head, sort of forcing me to do what I truly need to do. I woke up yesterday morning with my throat and ears hurting a little bit, my body aching, and with my head all stuffy. The evening before, I had made plans with a neighbor to go running around to a few stores yesterday so I put off calling it off until the last minute, thinking…no I’m not getting sick…it’s allergies. Nope, not this time.
So, I called her and spent the entire day yesterday camped out on the couch finishing the gorgeous green scarf I had started which can be seen here. Yes, I know that the photo makes this scarf look turquoise but it isn’t, it’s emerald green I promise. I’ll take a photo of the finished scarf another day when I feel a bit more human. As the day went on, the worse my voice got. By the time I woke up this morning it had turned into full laryngitis.
Today has been spent camped out in bed, catching up on email as well as clearing out my inbox. In an email that I sent to my dear friend Tabitha this morning, I asked the rhetorical question, ‘Why do we sign up for more things than we can ever possibly read?’. Why ask her? Because she does it too! You sign up for something because it looks so interesting, then another and another. All of a sudden you find your inbox flooded daily and it becomes so overwhelming that you do not read any of it. Your important emails from friends, etc. get lost in the fray…you get it. It’s so bad that I have even created new email accounts in the past to try to avoid this confusion, then I wind up doing it with the new account too. Yep, I am a total mess when it comes to staying electronically organized.
So, I unsubscribed from several things this morning and read most of what I had missed from friends in the past few months. You see, the past few months have found me withdrawing from the online world a great deal and so this overload issue of mine really became apparent. From here on out, I am really going to try not to do this to myself again! I sign up for things which inspire me which is a good thing. However, when it snowballs like this it has the opposite effect. Now maybe I will have more energy and time to resume visiting some very dear people whose updates became buried in my messy inbox!
Today hasn’t been all work though. I did catch a few things in my inbox which gave me some confirmation that I have been thinking in the right direction lately. The only thing that I hadn’t been doing was listening to my thoughts…well I had been…sort of…but not fully. So, this is where the Universe came in yesterday and said, “Okay, enough! If you won’t listen…if you insist on burying yourself in busyness to avoid being still and just being who you are…here you go…poof laryngitis and a cold. Now you will stay still.” Seriously this is exactly what I think the Universe said to me. Do I think that the Universe is a big meanie? N-o!
It just has a way of making sure that we get the hint. It all starts our lovingly and gently, and over time gets more and more insistent, until we finally have no choice but to listen when we’ve repeatedly ignored the whispers. I have to admit that I get the message and that I do wish that I had simply listened sooner instead of running myself ragged. But, here I am now and it feels pretty darn good just to be here in the moment…being me and hearing all of the affirming messages which I am finding by being still.
So tell me…does the Universe kick you in the pants when you refuse to listen? If so, and you care to give me an example I’m listening.